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The Closeted Conscience

March 13, 2014

 And he saith unto them, Whose is this image and superscription?

 They say unto him, Caesar’s. Then saith he unto them, Render therefore unto Caesar the things which are Caesar’s; and unto God the things that are God’s.

 When they had heard these words, they marvelled, and left him, and went their way. Matthew 22. 20-22

Yes, and there is two sides to that coin … as has been stated in a comment from the essay Saint Saturated continued. Man build up what Yeshua tore down, or shall we say, tore apart. Then the veil of the temple was tore in two from top to bottom Mark 15. 39. But what is the significance of this? What does this veil represent? Like Moses parting the sea that the children of Israel might go forward on dry land … what is revealed in this highly symbolic plea? One might look at this as separation of church and state. Surely there is a teaching on this in what the Prophet says in Matthew. Levi was a tax collector; he would know its meaning. In another essay in SPIR, it says that man divided and divided and divided of himself.
If you fulfill the royal law according to the scripture, “You shall love your neighbor as yourself,” you do well; but if you show partiality, you commit sin, and are convicted by the law as transgressors. For whoever shall keep the whole law, and yet stumble in one point, he is guilty of all. James 2. 9-10
I often wonder how many consciences are veiled due to what James teaches on partiality, which is another way of saying self-interests are unlawful according to the Law of the Prophets. When you see behind the scarf, the veil, the cloth … the title, the post, the polling … what is revealed? Let’s follow a story …
A very young woman gets pregnant. She views abortion as murder and gives birth. Dad does not want to be daddy, and disappears. How convenient. Mom struggles until she meets another man. This man decides he wants to be daddy (well, sort of); he has been daddy twice before with other young women, and left. “This is easy,” he says, “I will be daddy until I don’t want to be daddy anymore.” How convenient. And so, he becomes daddy three more times. He beats up mommy and the kids, at least getting overly rough with them by smacking them around when he gets angry and drunk and high, and when mom is busy at work, he takes the little ones and searches for a “hooker” to satisfy a drive he cannot control: controlling young, unmarried, struggling young women. He has been in jail several times for various crimes, but never for beating up his wife or children,  because his wife is afraid, and is told by her mother-in-law that she must have done something to deserve the beatings, and eventually, it becomes the norm. She is in a bind. She has to work to feed the children and pay the bills, and she needs a babysitter that she can’t afford. Her husband murdered while in prison. Self-defense, but who cares about killings of inmates, even if the one murdered was trying to defend himself from a man who cannot control his anger … And the man gets let off, and let out … time and time again, he gets let off, and let out, and each time, someone new suffers, along with some of the old, which makes one wonder if there is something illegal with the legal system … where this particular man is concerned. Who might be benefiting from having a drug dealer on the streets? Or possibly, from having a man with access to children?
Finally, the bottom falls out, and the wife is sent to the hospital because she has been beaten too hard. There is a divorce, which leaves mom without a babysitter. Financial struggles increase … I will stop here, but there is much more in this saga … like more beatings in random places, unexpectedly, threats, lice and pink eye at state-run day care, theft, someone gets shot … meanwhile, there is hope, especially for the kids, IF … the kids can just get let out … if these little ones could just get let off  … this roller coaster in hell …  when a couple of decent men step in. One, a local priest … God bless him! He does more than most priests, and he may just be getting started in his Marriage … the other, is granddad, and giving all he can while trying to keep himself standing. But I must ask, how, why … is this offender of society permitted to wreak such havoc in the lives of so many? Isn’t there a way to bind his “thingy” to keep it from producing? Isn’t there a law that can prohibit his “thingy” from coming within a few yards of her “thing”? Makes you wonder how the coin is flipped, doesn’t it?
The Religious hierarchy preach abstinence, and they preach abortion as a sin. I am not pro-abortion, but I do think there is a terrible imbalance in the system when it comes to choice. People are weak, and prone to the flesh. This is fact, but are those closets thriving in a world of fantasy, believing that man won’t take advantage of something, however it is viewed? They spin-doctrined a celibacy teaching that has caused a great deal of harm inside, and out. Who are the ones who actually believe institutional celibacy to be a worthy place? Men who prefer men? Men who hate women? Men who think women are born dirty? Men who blame women for the fall of man? Men who are partial? What flesh and blood man does not desire companionship, and does not desire to use a part of himself for pleasure? Or family? Or health?
Celibacy is a farce. I will tell you of those who can be Virginal. To be VIRGIN is to love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, mind and strength, and your neighbor as yourself. Man in marriage to the Institution missed the message on what it means to be Eucharist. He is just man playing at being God, or a God he allows himself to be convinced is celibate. Well, gee, what is meant by Son in Holy Scripture? This is mighty complex … and discourse for another time. But to stay on course, Agl. Paul says in 1 Corinthians 13.11: When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became man, I put away childish things. Man went and build up what Yeshua tore down. So, what are these boys afraid of?
Illustration by John R. Neill
I know of priests who will tell pregnant women who come to them for help in deciding whether or not to keep the pregnancy that they should let their conscience decide. This demonstrates not only the insensitivity of a pastoral priest, but also his ignorance. First, if he is without wife and child, and has lived his own conscience in a closet, what would he know of her conscience. He would not, because his own conscience has been dissuaded. Second, he can only know of something having been born of it. I think most would agree on this last. Unless you are growing up within the proxy of dishevelment, you realize your life is exceedingly different from the life of the abused woman who gets pregnant. The priest has his room and board payed for, and if he has a parish of a thousand or more members … that’s a lot of little ones, should you choose to see them as such. This causes me to think of the old woman who lives in a shoe, with so many children she doesn’t know what to do. And of those who move into the higher chairs? These become more focused in other matters. So, the farther he moves from her and her conscience, the more he becomes fixed in things less inclined toward her, and the cross is very far away. The orphan and the widow spoken of in James is no longer his altar and his penance. It’s somebody else’s concern. Augustine certainly had pleasured himself, until he made the choice to become involved elsewhere, but what did he leave in his wake? How many children did he sire that man has no knowledge of … but God knows how many children, and how many were born from these, and from these, and from these … and so on. I don’t judge his lack of conscience in this day, just the closet mentality of those who ought to, by now, know better. Why don’t they know better?
Now, about the woman who shows up in the parish study asking what to do about her pregnancy … is God testing the priest on his conscience? And what if the priest says to her, “Abortion is a sin. Have the baby.” Or, “I will send you to a place where you can work until you give birth, and then the child will be adopted.” We know how many of these cases turned out. But what about the priest? Where is his cross walk? Has God not offered the priest, time and time again, the opportunity to join in Marriage? I can just hear it: Okay, son, all you have to do is cross that great divide,  and you will go forward to the other side. I will even send my messenger to part the waters for you, or maybe I will send one to extend my hand that you might cross that sea. Peter believed, and left his net, and the boat, and, of course, he stumbled, but Lord was there. This is to be Virginal, even when you mess up and betray the Christ, Son of the Living God, but you must at some point pick up your mat, or get out of that boat. Your own healing must commence, before you can consider healing another.
Let’s look at what man uses as his a la carte Scripture of Old World Religion. Let’s look at 1 Corinthians, Chapter 7.
Now concerning the things of which you wrote me:
It is good for a man not to touch a woman. Nevertheless, because of sexual immorality, let each man have his own wife …
Does anyone actually believe a Prophet Apostle of God would say this to man, unless he knew him to be immoral? Jesus walked with women; ate with them, communed and prayed with them, even spoke privately with the Woman at the Well, accepting a drink from her! If these were not to be touched, He would have said so, and He did not. All you Religious nerds out there, clinging to this passage as if it were God itself, RETURN TO THE DAY OF EDEN. What Agl. Paul is referring to in First Corinthians 7 is Spiritual Essence: LIFE. When God made Woman  for Adam, he made Life. Eve is Light. Her name means Life, the same Life in I am the way, the truth and the life found in John. Just as Miriam, and Mary and the Woman at the Well are Light, the four Cornerstones of THE CHURCH. My yoke is easy and my burden is light (Matthew 11.30). In the Wisdom of Sirach 51.26, it states, Place your neck under her yoke, And let your soul receive her instruction. Eve is Angel, my friends. She is companion to Adam. This is Gift given to him that he might walk in Truth.
So, because of sexual immorality, let each man have his own wife … but do not touch Woman, unless you love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, mind and strength … and your neighbor as yourself. The interpretation on the Prophet’s words in Genesis will require an essay of its own.
Peace and Love.
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